So... Lately this has gotten worse - I'm just tired of everything. Not feeling suicidal or anything, I'm not that weak. But I just don't see the point anymore.
There's no real challenge in our lives, we're safe, got food on the table, good medical care... So we're just... Here.
No fight for survival, no survival of the fittest...
I know that there's hardships in the world, but I'm not a part of it. And no matter how hard I try to think that "I live a good life, others don't"
- it doesn't really help. It's still pointless.
I want to join the army, or travel around the world. But I can't. Nature decided to give me diabetes. How fucking typical. The one thing I want to do, is getting hindered by an incurable medical condition.
I don't have a hobby, because nothing really interests me... I've been working with music, art, game development, sports, etc... But it get's boring after some days/hours. It's always the same - "Wow, this was fun!" But then I overdo it, I sit like... Two days straight with it. I guess that's a problem, I don't stop untill it's finished. I sat 19 hours straight with 3D modeling, because it was fun, but then... suddenly - "God, this is fucking boring..."
I just feel like I'm in a deep hole, and I can't get up.
I wouldn't call it depression, because I have no thoughts about killing myself, or turning insane with a gun in school. Nothing like that.
I just... Glide through life, without a point.
What am I supposed to do? ._.